A Longing

There exists a longing 

deep inside.

A part of myself that has been there 

from the beginning.

It has sought a place of peace in the world,

a comfort, a home, a sanctuary.

This longing has lead me to many churches, to many bars, to many groups, to fellow seekers, but no matter where I sought,  still the longing was unquenched.

Then finally, one day, as i sat in despair and asked “will this longing ever be fulfilled?”

I received an answer.

   “My child, your longing, is who you are. The cosmic seed which shone from your newborn eye into your mother’s is a gift from your father.

You have sought to find solace, comfort, belonging, meaning outside of yourself,

but it cannot be done, it can only be found within, and once found, offered, as a gift.

your life IS love, the wellspring of eternity, once you realize this, there is no where on earth where it cannot be found.

Your longing is who you are, a pure point of light, which lives in a state of eternal creation. There are a million paths to the fulfillment of your longing, each as valid as the next, each an offering of the love from which you emanate.

Take comfort in these words my child, these words are your home, I am your mother, I bare witness to your struggle, i shall provide the pathways through which your light may shine, ever anew, I am with you always”